While I was coming back from a near-by friend's house, who had given me an original Lebanese meal, "Loubieh b zeit", as my parents are abroad trying to build a future for my siblings and I, I was thinking while walking, should I stay in Lebanon? And I kept seeing this image of me quitting my job, saying good-bye to everyone and going to where my folks are.
As I arrived home, I put on the news, and saw the new commercial for Fransabank, which is about people taking a picture with a picture of a Lebanese landscape set as a background, and each person is pondering about something, the future bride and bride-groom thinking whether they should postpone their wedding or not, the grandparents thinking whether they should tell their relatives to come visit Lebanon this summer or not, the student thinking of staying in Lebanon or leaving for a job abroad, and so on and so forth...
Questions all Lebanese are familiar with. I had tears in my eyes when at the end of commercial, they all said: "I am staying, We are staying"
We Lebanese are so patriotic and sensitive to this issue... but a commercial won't change anyone's mind would it?
I can't forget how happy I was to land in Beirut's airport on September 6, 2006, it was the last day of the Israeli blockade. I was so happy to see the traffic and hear the honking, and feel the humidity of our Beirut.
But, I still don't know whether I should look for a house, get married, raise my children in this country.